Written by: Sam Kinne, Kansas City Fellow – Class of 2015-2016
The farther I get away from college graduation the more I notice two things: one, I am repeatedly asked what my plans are and two, my plans don’t normally make a difference to what comes to pass. Planning is a good thing, right? Most of us learned at a young age to allot a portion of our time to plan and to focus on the future. So why then do our lives play out differently than we had accounted for more often than not?
I feel our desire to plan is innate and grows up from within us. It shows in varying ways, a few being our creativity, imagination, and organization. However, there is another force pushing downward, the pressure to have a plan, to know what’s next and to have an answer ready for all of the questions we are going to have to answer. These questions come from friends and family members, they show up in job interviews, and even from strangers.
“Now that college is over, what’s next?”
“Where do you see yourself in 5 years?”
The pressure we feel to have an answer ready can evolve into anxiety. Anxiety can manifest as stubbornness. It is very easy to become headstrong and inflexible when circumstances alter our established answers to recurring questions of where we thought we would be. This can result in a feeling of swimming against the current, in a state too frantic and exhausted to ask, why?
More than a few business leaders in the Kansas City community have mentioned how they were encouraged and impressed by the commitment the fellows have taken to not only in starting well (the tagline), but in starting differently. I am learning that planning can be a great thing, but how to listen to God and have accountability to walk in His plan for me rather than struggling to keep pace with my own. This has been a valuable lesson that I continue to learn from the Kansas City Fellows. I am truly grateful for it, and for having to begin practicing it early on in my career.
Proverbs 16:9 says, “The heart of a man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.” It is beyond easy to get caught up in the pressures of society, but the more we strive to be in tune with God as we continue in and toward our vocations the more that pressure will diminish and be replaced with peace. My plan for my future is insufficient to the plan that God has set in place.